Friday, December 17, 2010

5 Days

Nana asked me how I was feeling. I said I didn't know. I don't think I will know exactly until Wednesday. I do know that every morning after I drop Matthew off at school, I am overcome for a moment with a mix of emotions. Many times I am overcome when I think about all of the friends, family, and strangers to me who are thinking about Jacob, who are praying for Jacob. I think about God all of the time. I believe that his plan for Jacob is to be my teacher, to show me what is possible, to show me what is important, and to show me who I am. Sometimes I am overcome by the thought of what I will never know. But only for a moment. I have to drive. On Wednesday I can be overcome but for now we have to attend to life. By the way, I told Matthew that Jacob will be in the hospital next week and he said, "but then I won't have a brother." Then he wanted to know who he would be staying with and what Jacob was going to the hospital for. I said that Jacob had a boo-boo inside his head. Matthew asked if they were going to fix his balance then. I said yes. He said how. And I said with special tools in his ears and nose. What to say?


  1. Jacob is in gods hands and you are all in our hearts. love auntie Louise and uncle Billy

  2. Danielle sent me over. Praying for you all. I'll check in tomorrow, though I imagine your blog will be the last thing on your mind.

  3. Beth and Matt,
    Saying prayers for you guys and especially Jacob. You're in our thoughts.
    Arlene, Pat, Gina, Bryan and Beth